Mortal Showers Bring Eternal Flowers

Clear Skies and Clear Scans

From Brianna

Well my friends, the adventures have not ceased. Now, instead of chemo and IV pumps, it’s cows and overflowing gardens. (We are now up to our eyeballs in zucchini) indeed, life is going by fast, but it is not empty. Every moment is filled to the brim.
Last week Scott and mom flew back to Memphis for the scheduled scans. These were to check if there has been any change, or if the cancer has come back/resumed activity. We are happy and grateful to inform you that the scans showed no change, Scott continues to claim the name of cancer free.

So what does one do with a cancer free life? This is how we are choosing to fill it….

Katie and Buttercup our beautiful jersey cow

Katie and Buttercup our beautiful jersey cow

Our wonderful garden/jungle

Our wonderful garden/jungle

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Running in the mornings

Running in the mornings

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Pushups with two good arms

Pushups with two good arms

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Great Friends

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Visiting Memphis Friends

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Swim Lessons

Swim Lessons

Elder M in Mexico

Elder M in Mexico

As I lay in bed on July 15th this month I realized it had been one year since the day I was told my twin brother had cancer. 365 days. Four seasons. One year.
I lay there thinking over the past year, then I got up and went to my closet to find the old journal I had kept for that year. I opened it up to to the page titled July 15, 2014 and found a very short entry. Hardly a few sentences long. The words were blurred by what were surely dried, year-old tears.
“I am so scared. But I am trying to replace my fear with faith.”
and then, underneath those words I had scribbled a scripture reference.
Mark 9: 23-24

23 Jesus said unto him, If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth.

 24 And straightway the father of the child cried out, and said with tears, Lord, I believe; help thou mine unbelief.

As a young child reading that story I never understood what the father was saying. “Lord I believe, help thou my unbelief.” It sounded like he was contradicting himself. Did he believe or did he not? I thought he couldn’t make up his mind. But it wasn’t until July 15 last year, when I knelt beside my bed as a girl who had just been told her best friend/brother had cancer that I understood what that man meant. and I cried out, most certainly with tears.
Lord I believe, help thou my unbelief.
I believed in miracles, I believed in faith, I believed in Him. But I needed Him to make up the difference of what I was not strong enough to believe in. What my human heart could not take, what my eyes could not see and what my soul could not bear. And he did not leave me alone. He answered with peace that filled every crack of my broken heart. Of the many miracles I have seen since that day, that is one of the most precious to me. Broken hearts can be healed. That burden was taken from me, and that crushing pain lifted.  I gave it to Him. and He took it without hesitation.
Lord I believe, help thou my unbelief.
Flipping through the pages of that journal I turned to the entry written only  few days later on July 22, 2014.
“This experience has really opened my eyes to the fact that there is pain in the world. There are hard things. There is sorrow, there is loss. But there is also the atonement. There is joy and peace. There is strength and love. There is hope. And that far outweighs the dark things of this world.”

 

2 thoughts on “Clear Skies and Clear Scans

  1. Susan Brookings

    Thank you so much for the update. I almost did not recognize Scott with hair!! Scott you look great! So glad you scans were clear. Harlan also just went back for scans and they also were clear!! I love your post – keep up the good work.

  2. Mom of 5

    Oh sweet words of assurance – our Heavenly Father does live and loves us so much…he will take all our burdens and give us peace in our souls! How grateful we are to hear that Scott continues to be cancer free – a wonderful blessing. Each of you have been through so much physically and spiritually and each of you have grown stronger in so many ways. May your journey continue to bring you ever closer to our Savior as you continue to celebrate Scotts continued good health. We love you guys!!

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